Why a diagnosis of Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) isn’t the point
It all begins with an idea.
When I started learning about narcissism, it was like someone had turned the lights on in a dark room I’d been living in my whole life. I began to see how many narcissists had been around me—and how, together, their abuse rewired my brain and convinced me that I was the problem.
At first, I wondered if the missing piece was proof. If a therapist had diagnosed the people who had hurt me with Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD), surely my friends, my family, and maybe even the courts would have believed me.
Over time, I learned that was a fantasy. It doesn’t work like that. And a diagnosis wouldn’t have been the key to my healing anyway.
Recognizing the patterns was.
Understanding NPD — and Why It’s Rarely Diagnosed
Clinically, NPD is defined by enduring patterns of narcissistic behavior, especially a profound lack of empathy. These aren’t one-off bad days—they’re repeated cycles of manipulation, entitlement, and harm, often with the intent to control or diminish others.
The disorder itself also blocks self-awareness. Narcissists don’t walk into therapy to heal; they walk in to control the narrative. If they sit across from a therapist, it’s usually to convince that therapist that you are the problem.
Even the therapists themselves can be hesitate to diagnose NPD—it’s considered a big, weighty label, and many professionals focus instead on addressing the behaviors in the moment. Add in the fact that in our everyday language, “narcissist” gets thrown around so much that the word can lose its meaning entirely.
That’s why learning to spot the patterns matters far more than chasing a label.
Here’s what I want you to know:
You don’t need a formal piece of paper to validate what you’ve lived.
You don’t need a clinical term to trust your gut.
And you certainly don’t need your abuser’s agreement to reclaim your life.
Every day you spend trying to “prove” they’re a narcissist is another day you’re centering them instead of yourself.
My Story
When I was in second grade, my mother began dating a man named Al. They both had narcissistic traits, but Al’s manipulation had a darker edge. My mother cared about appearances; Al cared about my silence regarding the sexual abuse he inflicted.
What happened within our family was textbook narcissistic abuse. But as a child, with no framework for mental health or trauma, I didn’t recognize patterns. I just thought my mom and her boyfriend were "mean.”
That training to stay quiet and “keep the peace” followed me into adulthood. It led me straight into the arms of a husband who made what my mother and Al did look like child’s play.
For years, I held down multiple jobs to keep our family afloat—earning every dollar, paying every bill, raising three boys, and trying to hold everything together. Meanwhile, my ex excelled at one thing: leveling up in his video games.
The truth? I didn’t think of him as a narcissist at the time. I thought he was lazy, selfish, and mean. And after repeated promises, I clung to the hope he would change—until he was out of my life and I could finally see the patterns for what they were.
After the divorce, reality hit hard. Getting him out of the house was one battle. Co-parenting with him became the war. It was marked by endless threats of legal action and false accusations (including calling the police because I asked our son to do his chores). Worst of all, there was a calculated effort to manipulate my youngest son so that he would see me as the problem— a wound that still aches today.
As I learned more about narcissism and narcissistic patterns, I realized that it didn’t matter if my ex had ever gotten an official diagnosis — it wouldn’t change anything about my process to heal.
Why Patterns Matter More Than Proof
My real transformation began when I started naming the patterns myself. I began to see:
The love-bombing disguised as promises to be a father to my boys.
The future-faking in his empty vows to find work.
The constant lying about things both big and small as a way to control the narrative
The manipulation of demanding I pay him a salary to sit in my office while he played video games.
The gaslighting disguised as me ‘not remembering things correctly’
The ways in which he played the victim, claiming that his behavior was all my fault.
Naming the patterns didn’t change him—but it changed me. It gave me clarity. It gave me language. And it gave me permission to walk away.
Blog Post Title Three
It all begins with an idea.
It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.
Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.
Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.
Blog Post Title Four
It all begins with an idea.
It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.
Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.
Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.